Don't give in to despair; seek help and find hope in God
I miss my brother. I wish I could have done more for him. He left behind his wife and daughter. Don't give in to the struggle against the demons. Please seek help and support if you need it. Your life is worth living. I have walked that road and it only leads to more pain.
I have found that even in the darkest moments when I cried out to God for help, He pulled me out of the darkness. There is hope, but it is a long road ahead. To all the military brothers, stay strong, and if you need anything, please send me a message or go into an Orthodox church.